I’ve gotten quite a few emails asking me about the status of Trails, the new book I’m co-authoring with my husband Scott. I thought it only fair to update you, my loyal readers, on the status of the project.
Needless to say, my getting a severe case of the flu, then the sudden death of my former husband, set us back a bit. We are blessed to have a wonderful and caring managing editor, Kimberlee Williams, at Vanilla Heart Publishing. She has been a rock through all the delays, dealing with a temperamental artist (that would be me) who was sick, then sick and grieving. Delaying the book a few weeks was not a problem for her. She told me, “It’s all good, Smoky. We’re fine.”
So, I’m back in the saddle and working on completing the book. My goal is to have it to Kimberlee at VHP early next week. The electronic versions of the book will probably hit the major book venues a few days before print becomes available, but the book will be available in both eBook and print form.
Because you all have been so patient waiting for Trails, and because most of you are more familiar with my writing than with Scott’s, I thought I’d give you a little teaser today, an excerpt from one of Scott’s pieces.
On the Road to Sustainability
Tongue in cheek, Kurt Vonnegut once wrote, “We are what we pretend to be.” Funny, of course. But, typical of Vonnegut, this statement is also profound. A synonymous assertion is the popular ’60’s slogan, “You are what you eat.” So it goes.
What’s meant here? For earth-worshipping hippies, a group to which we happily belong, isn’t this backwards thinking? Aren’t we all working to strip away the veneer, to find our essence, to find the truth?
Yes, of course, we shouldn’t pretend to be anything.
But, when we’re not looking, what we say, the company we keep, how we dress, what we read, the music we enjoy, the movies and television we watch, our hobbies, who we love, our politics, how we relate to the environment, and what we eat, make us who we are. All these things merge together and solidify; our tastes and values become the essence of who we are, or who we pretend to be.

We made this peace pole that stands in our front garden, Kwan Yin, Goddess of Compassion, stands nearby.
Yes, we study Buddhism, we practice meditation, we know our ego is a trap, an illusion. But while we’re waiting for enlightenment, shouldn’t we at least pretend to be enlightened? Wouldn’t we rather live in a world inhabited by people pretending to be enlightened, rather than the selfish, wasteful insanity that surrounds us? Wouldn’t we rather have a neighbor who’s pretending to be kind, rather than one who’s pretending to be mean?
Some of you are thinking: I’d rather have a neighbor who is kind rather than one who is mean. It’s a matter of semantics. Most of us are neither nice nor mean. We’re definitely not enlightened. We’re students; we’re practicing to become enlightened. And we know this practice will take a very long time, a millennia of lifetimes. We’re human beings, complete packages, containing all the irrational paradoxes of life.
We’re not truly ourselves yet; we’re practicing to be ourselves. In this context, Vonnegut’s brilliant statement morphs into the following: We are what we practice to be. Not as funny, of course, but it nicely serves our purposes, the earth’s purposes.
What does Vonnegut’s statement have to do with sustainability? It’s all a matter of choice, a matter of learning, a matter of practice. We can choose kindness rather than meanness, kindness to all sentient beings, to all creatures; kindness to ourselves, to our bodies; kindness to the earth.
Practice kindness rather than love. Love can be beautiful, but it also can be ugly. Along with love comes, judgment, control, jealousy, anger, hate. We can, for example, be unkind to the people we love, to the world we love.
Here, then, is the our simple message: let’s choose, let’s learn, let’s practice, let’s pretend to be kind; kind to ourselves, kind to our loved ones, kind to our neighbors, kind to the earth.
This is where we begin. We practice sustainability, sustaining the earth, and all that occupies the earth, both animate and inanimate—yes, we want to sustain rocks and dirt.
We aren’t attempting completeness here. We’re not environmental scientists, biologists, botanists, et cetera. We’re artists, that’s all. And here are some of the simple things we’ve chosen to practice kindness. This is our contribution.
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Love this. Back in the 90s there was a “Solution-Focused” movement in the field of psychotherapy. One of the underlying philosophies was that we can create our reality by living as if we’re in it. I know that sounds strange, but for example, if I wake up grouchy and irritable, but act as if I’m not – put a smile on my face and greet people in a friendly way – before I even realize it, I’ll feel as happy as I’m acting. The movement took a lot of criticism, but I thought it had some very good – very real – components, namely that we choose our reactions, and that shapes helps to shape our reality.
You are preaching to the choir on this one, girlfriend. Both Scott and I firmly believe in creating our reality. Sometimes, though, like with the flu and the death of my ex, you can’t create a new paradigm that irradicates the bad. But being a chronic pain sufferer, I live by the philosophy that I can bitch and moan and do nothing and be in pain, or I can put that smile on my face and go about living my life and be in pain. I’m in pain either way, so I may as well enjoy life!
Totally agree with this philosophy, Smoky. Life will always be full of challenges, but we choose how to react to them. Can’t wait for this book!
I remember reading that quote when it came out, possibly in “Mother Night,” though I’m not going to cheat and use Google to pretend I know that for certain. For certain, it’s apt here. On my cynical days, I think people often pretend to be nicer than they are, especially when others are looking. My panpsychism probably overlaps with some of your beliefs. I know I’ll enjoy this book.
Malcolm
You will, Malcolm. And I have to give most of the book credit to Scott. He wrote more of it than I, and he really steered us down the paths we needed to take. No pun intended there! I’m married to a gifted artist. And yeah, your psychic awareness probably does affect how you look at people. I know mine does. We need on/off switches, I swear!
I’m reminded of the Twelve Step programs, where a couple of the recurring phrases are: “Act as if..” and, “Fake it till you make it.” This means, smile, even though you don’t “feel” like smiling. It does more to your disposition than you know. And it’s not unpleasant for others to see, either.
Another great post…..Thanks.
It is evocative of a 12-step, Marilyn. Hadn’t looked at it that way! Thanks for your always great input here.
I’ve often thought writers might need their own 12 Step Program, lol. Thanks for responding as you did.